It's One of Those Nights

I've never been one to complain about the lack of friends in my life.  I tend to be a pretty tough and independent cookie, and greatly value the few friends that I keep close.  I would and will probably always pick to have five best friends rather than 100 acquaintances.  And, while I also value my alone time, it's one of those nights where I'd like to hang out with someone.  It probably mostly stems from my cancelled trip to Boston, which I'm finding I'm more bummed about than I had imagined I would be, and for different reasons.  I was originally kicking myself for wasting the money, but at this point, I'm not even thinking about that.  I'm more disappointed that didn't get to visit a grad school and just get out of Carroll County, even if just for a quick jaunt.  I'm bummed at the idea that even if I had gone to Boston, it would have been by myself at this point, and even though I know one or two people in the city, I highly doubt that hanging out would have occurred.  So, I've come to the conclusion that it's not even going by myself that would be upsetting, it's knowing that those around probably wouldn't have wanted to see me.  And that just feels pitiful, a feeling I pretend doesn't exist.  I hate pity parties, and this is turning into one; on the brighter side...

A friend has invited me to DC for tomorrow with a friend of hers from her study abroad program, so at least I am doing something with myself, and at least there are those who have chosen to reach out.  I suppose the thing to keep in mind is cliche and thus, when one door closes, another opens.  I thought that my friendship from those in Boston meant more, and it apparently doesn't, so wasting time by dwelling on it isn't worth it.  Instead, it's better to spend time with a person I never imagined I could be friends with again after a roommate fiasco of sorts.  The whole friendship seems to have jumped out of a bush and surprised me, but instead of a rabid animal, is more like a small rabbit or kitten, that of a more than pleasant surprise, and that is what I need to concentrate on celebrating.

Hope you all have a safe and enjoyable weekend!