'Tis the Season

For bright lights and peppy music to be on 24/7 so that I don't feel like a depressed hobbit with this whole "let's get pitch black by 5:00pm".  It shall continue through February I'm sure.

I wrote a pretty sweet blog post last week, and then, blogger didn't save it.  Needless to say, I am slightly displeased.

Also,

This weather has been divine to my hair.  So much so, that I'm being vain and posting about it.  Yep, awesome weather makes for awesome hair days

New Things from the Past 2 Weeks

With the advent of new feet, I now realize why women love shoes so much.  So much in fact, that I just dropped $110 on a pair of flats.

After being entirely too stressed out from being at rehearsals 24/7, I realized how much I actually enjoyed doing props, the only stressful thing was getting homework done that seemed (and probably is) pointless.  But, running around town to find obscure things (other than that Chinese newspaper), spending someone else's money, and then spray painting copious amounts, was quite relaxing and enjoyable.

In fact, the only work I've enjoyed doing has been my senior sem.  The only stressful thing about it is that I want to create enough decent pages to turn in each week, but the actual writing is quite enjoyable.  In fact, the further I get into it, the easier it is, and the giddier I get when I get to read rhetorical theory.  Reading about heteroglossia and the imagined audience is rather pleasant, and before I know it, I'm at my five pages for the week.  I feel like I should be doing more research, that this project is coming along too easily, but I'm actually having fun creating it, it doesn't seem like a chore in the least.

Unlike grad school.  The biggest chore since cleaning the dreadful house I lived in last year.  I don't want to do it, but know I should.  Don't know what I should apply for, I mean, I love writing (otherwise I wouldn't have this blog) and I love publishing, but the more I write my sem, the more in love I fall with academia and rhetoric.  PR and marketing might blend the two, but I hate finance, a subject that is sure to be broached.  So, what to do?  Sit back and wait for lightening to strike?  Or, apply to every appealing program on the planet and see which one chooses to accept me?  There are problems with both, too many problems that then just become overwhelming and I give-up and choose to read for Popular Romance Fiction instead.

When did it become winter?

I like cold weather as much as the next person, in fact, I prefer it to hot, but this sudden change has got me puzzled.

Dear Mother Nature,
I would like some fall weather, please.
Yours Truly,
Brooke

In other news, I've been beyond busy doing homework, writing a senior sem., spray painting any and every cigarette box I can find, trying to figure out grad-school, attempting at having a social life (it's not working), and sleeping, because that aspect of my life is very important to me.

So, yeah, I'm stressed.  But, honestly, having to get all this stuff done, doesn't really bother me in the end. It's annoying to do, but I know that (at some point) I can get it done.

What's bothering me more are the personal internal struggles I feel like I've been having.  Yeah, yeah, I know, that sounds all angsty and diva-filled.  But, I'm not about to divulge them fully here.  And, yes, I know that's mean, I shouldn't let the cat's tail out of the bag, but deal with it.  My point is, is that more than anything, more than getting work done, or having friend drama, the things you're wrestling with within yourself feel so much heavier, I think because you can't rely on anyone to really, truly, help you.  Melancholy, yes, but it's mostly the truth.

And, on that note, I leave you, to sit in an unheated theatre as I am the mistress of props and sit on a table waiting until I am again summoned to answer or fix something to the best of my ability.

Happy Weekend!

Why Can't I be a European Citizen?

This was supposed to have posted in June, I have no clue why it didn't, it's nothing that's super relevant in this instant, but interesting nonetheless.

It's really just too bad that you need to be a citizen of Europe of the UK in order to do this festival gig, check it out!

Signs of Immaturity

It's been a month, and I've got a lot to say right now, but not much will to write. So for tonight, I leave you with this.  Next time you hear someone's car alarm going off, either a) ignore it like a grown-up or b) have some compassion.  I'm sure it's really not disrupting the party you're trying to have, or the cigarette you're trying to smoke.

You Can't Have Your Cake and Eat it Too